7 weeks

So brown spotting stopped yesterday morning and now is back in full swing this morning.  Not sure why I am only getting brown spotting in the morning.  I did exerte myself too much yesterday afternoon having to go to 3 stores since we needed stuff and dh messed up on the shopping last week.
I have a much slower day today so I am looking forward to being able to just relax at home here and maybe do a load of washing and dishes since they haven't been done in days and then this afternoon dd has her ST.

I go for my 2nd u/s tomorrow and then to Boston for my oath ceremony.  I am scared to death about getting bad news at the u/s.  I really don't know what I would do.  I can't lose this baby, not now after everything we have gone through the last 8 months.  I was reassured the last few days since my fatigue and queasiness have returned, but still know it doesn't mean much.  I really hate I could get some sign before on what the result will be.  I then worry that it is a bad sign that I am so scared of a m/c.  Up to 6 weeks I had a good feeling about this pregnancy and now I am just terrified I am going to lose it.  I also had a dream last night that I gave birth to the baby, but then it died from being born so premature.  I don't know what to take from the dream.  My last two pregnancies I had dreams of m/c and both times it happened.  The only difference between the first two dreams was the first one was just one baby and the second was two.  This time my dream was different in the fact the baby was fine when it was born, but it was very early, but nothing was done to help it and I treated it like a normal fullterm baby and then I realized it really would have needed help breathing and with temp is when I recognized the baby had died.