6 weeks

So I had to go for a repeat beta and u/s this morning.  I was very worried since this was going to be the deciding factor in what is going on and whether things are still okay.

My beta went from 12177 on Monday to 17817 today which equals a 87 hour doubling time so normal for betas in this range.

On the u/s there is one baby measuring right on track with a hb of 110 so I was overjoyed.
There is an area above the baby which the bleeding is coming from.  They said either vanishing twin or SCH, I am pretty sure it is a SCH because I don't think vanishing twins cause bleeds very much.

So like I figured I am dealing with another SCH.  So good news in that I am not miscarrying, however I am not out of the clear yet.  I need to take things easy and pray the SCH resolves quickly and doesn't grow larger. 

The nurse told me to d/c the baby aspirin but I don't feel comfortable with this.  From all the research I read it seems that this is a heavily debated subject.  For my last pregnancy I developed a SCH at 8 weeks and stopped the ba immediately and though the SCH resolved quickly ds's placenta died shortly after that causing iugr and his death and then me ultimately getting PE.  Though the BA may make a SCH more likely, I seriously blame stopping it in causing ds's death.  I also blame a clot for causing my first m/c.  That pregnancy I was never on BA and I never developed a SCH, but the baby died after a perfect u/s just before 7 weeks when the RE said my chance of m/c was only 5% after seeing a good hb.  I know many people m/c past 7 weeks, but most of those are due to chromosome problems.  My baby was chromsomally normal, though they would never admit to this since she came back as female they say they don't know if it was mine tissue that got tested by mistake.
However because of this and everything that happened with my last pregnancy I know my blood clots easily with pregnancy and stopping BA this early is too much of a risk.

I go back for a repeat u/s and hopefully d/c from the RE next Thursday morning.  I wasn't happy with this at first since I have my oath ceremony next Thursday, but I think it will be okay since the u/s is at 9 in Providence and then we will talk with the doctor and my oath is at 12 in Boston so as long as we are out of there by 10 it should work out okay just as long as my u/s ends up being good.  So next Thursday is going to be a very packed stressful day.  So not looking forward to it.

Had to tell the SLP today that I am pregnant.  Hate having to tell people this early, but I didn't want her to wonder why the place is a mess and I am not stopping dd from doing things.  I didn't want her to think I was a bad mother or something, just that medically I can not do certain things right now.