So I have come to a very weird realization today. In both my pregnancies I turned 21 weeks on holidays. Last time it was Christmas day, this time it is Halloween. I find this very odd.
This is a big milestone for me because it was on this date in time that ds died last pregnancy. He had a heartbeat Christmas morning and no longer a heartbeat on the 26th so some time from 21w0d and 21w1d he died. It feels good to reach my 2nd loss point. Of course it totally doesn't elimate my fears, it does help instill in me that this baby will likely stay and live.
I feel the baby a lot more now, but it is more in the evening. I am not sure if this is just when the baby more active or when I am finally able to rest after putting dd to bed. I must say it is totally different being pregnant when already taking care of a child. 90% of the time the pregnancy takes a backburner and is only a passing thought since my day is so preoccupied with dd. I am wondering if this will change once I get larger and it is no longer easy to hide it in public.
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