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So my MIL called on Friday about a psychic convection happening in town and wanted to know if I wanted to go.  I agreed, thinking it could be fine.  I didn't really have anything I cared about knowing right now.  I am finally pregnant, know the sex, and feel confident that things will work out financially and work wise for us.  It was $20 for a 15 min reading.  MIL went to a medium to try and connect with her mother who passed almost 2 years ago.  I asked them to just give me any psychic that didn't have a long wait.  I had a choice between one that reads palms and tarot cards, and another that is into numerology.  I really didn't care and really just wanted someone who I could look and touch me and tell me my deepest darkest secrets.  I don't believe using special devices really equals being a psychic because anyone can grab a book or research on the internet what the difference cards, etc mean.

Anyways, I decided to go with the first person.  She started off looking at my palm and at first it seemed like she was hitting the nail on the wall.  She said that I am the boss, but I am also stubborn and need to learn to be more flexible.  I had to laugh at this because it is very true and I am the boss of everything from career wise to family and home wise.  She said that I am healthy and that she feels a bit resistance with pulling back so that I have some baggage and need to learn to let it go.
She asked what I did for a living since a boss role would be best for me and I told her which seemed to run the rest of the reading.  She said I was very intelligent.   Which is true, but anyone could guess that from my profession, so I don't give her any points for that.  She then asked about living situation and I said I live with my husband and dd.  She was a bit surprised about this, and after coming home and looking on the internet I see I don't really have a marriage line (it is not on my palm, but side of hand) and there are no children lines.  This makes me then question how accurate palm reading really is.  She did say other things that hit the nail too though so who knows.  She said I have been through a lot of suffering and hardness in my past which is very true, and that I don't hold anything back - what you see is what you get - which is also true.

She then used the tarot cards and most of the reading was pretty good but she did see that change was going to happen and then drew the death card.  At first this worried me but then looking online afterwards I realize it only means change and a ending of a way of life and entering a new way of life.  That is has more to do with symbolizism than actual physical death.  However it still worried me with being pregnant.  I assume that it probably means that my life is going to change because of the pregnancy and baby, but who knows.  I kept quiet about the pregnancy and since I am so fat it is not noticable to strangers at all - they just think my belly is big because I am fat, not pregnant (I hate this stage because my belly is not normally this large, but strangers don't know that).  I wanted to see if she would guess I was pregnant from the reading, but she never did.  She related everything from the reading and cards to the business, so it makes me wonder about this woman's crediblity since the only things she really knew is what I told her.  She did draw the high pristress card when the question was how others view me, which she was happy about - saying it is the highest card in the deck and that it means people see me as a geniune and good person and look up to me. 

I never drew any reverse/negative cards, not sure if there were any in the deck or not since I didn't pay attention when I shuffled.  So I am trying to not be concerned about the death card since it was upright and online it says that means positive change, just not sure why that card will come up and not a more appropriate pregnancy one like the Emperist. 

Finally she said I was fearful in the past, but not anymore.  This is true since my fears with this pregnancy has decreased recently, though they still totally haven't gone away.

After the reading we went to ikea, which later turned out to be a bad idea.  I forgot it was Saturday so it was super packed and walking even a short distance is hard for me, let alone through the whole ikea store.  I am interested in getting a pull out couch for guests and FIL if he doesn't leave soon (getting tired of having a mattress on our living room floor).  MIL said ikea had ones that were in the 150-250 dollar range.  Well this turned out to be totally accurate.  Yes they had couches that became beds for that price, but they weren't pull out beds, they were futons.  I don't really want a futon as our main living room seating place.  I guess I am struck still waiting to find a used one one craig's list free section. 

Then we needed to look for a dresser for the baby clothes.  MIL offered to buy us the dresser.  We found a nice pull out set of drawers that she will pick up once we find out the crib colors (her friend is selling her used crib and since dd destroyed her crib it will probably be best to get another one).  It wasn't that cheap though $100, but if she wants to buy it I am not going to complain.  If it was me though I would have just got a used one because really I find $100 to be crazy for just a set of 4 pull out drawers (it isn't like it is a full dresser with mirror, etc).  I thought ikea was suppose to have good prices on stuff.  It didn't seem that way.