21w5d

So I had my ob appt today.  Luckily this time I didn't have as long of a wait - 45 min compared to the 1.5 hrs last time.  Unfortunately things didn't go as well at this appt.  On Friday my systolic bp was 140.  I blamed it on walking around for the few minutes before and the cuff being too big.  I tried again 3 min later with the smaller cuff (which you would think would give a higher reading since I am just past the min line, but at least it seems to fit better than the large one) and it was 130 so I felt better.  Saturday I caught dd's cold (she got sick on Thursday - not sure how she got a cold since last week we only to the library and then out for Halloween - she was at home all weekend and Monday and Tuesday) and was too busy to take my bp.  Yesterday I was much sicker and when I took my bp the systolic was 143 (this was after sitting for 30 min so I couldn't use that excuse).  I was a bit relieved the dystolic was normal and the fact I was going to see the doctor today.  I did read online that a cold could increase the systolic so I tried to blame it on that.

Anyways when I got called in today I told the nurse right away about the bp issues and the dizzy spells from before.  She took my bp and said it was normal at 134/85.  Yes that may be normal, but that is getting on the higher end of normal and it worries me that the dystolic there was creeping up since it has always been around 70 at home here.  It also makes me wonder how great my bp machine is here at home because this morning it gave me a reading of 117/68.  My urine dip stick only had trace protein (which I looked on the container means under 30 so who knows how accurate that is).
When the doctor came in though he was all concerned that I am heading into getting PE again.  Unfortuunately he is away the next 2 weeks so I can not see him again until the 26th.  He did tell me to take my bp twice a day and keep a log and bring it next time (I kept a log these past 3 weeks but forgot to bring it with me since I had to rush out the door).  He also booked an u/s for 3 weeks (so it will be on the 26th as well).  I hate though that I have to wait this long to get an u/s since it has already been almost 4 weeks so by then it will be almost 7 weeks inbetween u/s.  Anyways, it is looking like when I go in 3 weeks I will have to do another 24 hr urine and if it comes back over 300 then I will likely be admited for hospital bedrest for the remainder of the pregnancy.  This really upset me because I really wanted to avoid this this time.  Last time I got put in the hospital at 29 weeks and it would have been sooner if the stupid hospital didn't forget to tell my ob for 3 weeks that I had PE.  I really don't want to do hospital bedrest and have a preemie and nicu stay again, but the way things are going this is what is looking what will happen and there is nothing I can do about it which is so frustrating. 

To make matters worse it will be really hard to be away for weeks at a time this time.  I am self employed and am the only one who takes dd to her therapies.  She will also be going through the preschool transition process starting in December - February.  We went to the school board on Friday to try and move up these dates but they won't saying that I will still be very far from my due date when they have the first meeting on Dec 3.  Ya, maybe for a regular pregnant person 26 weeks is still very far from their due date, but the way things are going I may be admitted by 25 weeks.  It also concerns me that I am still 16 days away from viability and another 6 weeks away from the baby having a decent shot of survival (though still high chance of complications and disabilities).  I can't get PE already.  And further more I really don't want to miss Christmas.  DD will only be 2.5 once at Christmas and this is something that can't be made up for.