So my temp was 97.77 this morning. Higher than the last 2 very low temps, but not higher than some previous earlier temps. So I don't know what is up. I am hoping I ovulated yesterday and this is just a slow rise. Guess tomorrow temp will tell the truth. Usually I can tell with symptoms, but it is hard right now. My breasts feel a bit bigger, but not as large as they can get post-o. And my cm turned sticky yesterday and seems a bit more watery today, but no where like the easy to spot ewcm I last had 2 days ago. Guess I should have done opk this cycle, but it would have been stupid to spend the money, plus with such a late o I would have went through at least 10 of them.
I also looked back at my old charts when I first started charting back in 2008 and I think the ones that I had a short lp, ff just got my o date wrong. Sometimes when you don't have perfect temps it is hard to get o date right (especially for short cycles). I had one cycle that was only 18 days long. FF had an o date of 11 with a lp of only 7. However when I look at the temps I think I could have o on day 6 which would give me a lp of 12. My last 2 ivf's I had an lp of 12 so I think this is my normal lp and ff is just wrong many months with chosing an o date since really temps and other o calculations can only get you so close. Unfortunately many people take ff as god. I hear it all the time about people getting bfp at 7-8 dpo which biologically is impossible yet these people like to claim they are truely at 7-8dpo. Meanwhile they most likely o a few days earlier than they think. I mean if it was true that people can get a bfp at 7-8dpo then you would see woman after undergoing ART (who didn't trigger with hcg) say this and I have never seen a case of this. I have from women who triggered with hcg, but never ones that don't have false hcg in their system.
Anyways I am really starting to stress about this upcoming because so much is relying on it. If this doesn't work I don't know if we will be able to try again. DH is quitting his job at the end of the summer to go back to school and with that we lose the HP. His school does offer insurance, but I am not sure if they cover dependents or fertility. I did relook at the information page again yesterday and the brochure did mention well child visits which if it didn't cover dependents I am not sure why it would even be listed. Also I found the long booklet of information and it does mention infertility diagnosis and treatments so it is looking it will be covered, however without speaking directly to them I can't know for sure. Anyways I can't see how they won't cover dependents especially in MA where health insurance is manadory. If that was the case then their would be a lot of uninsured kids and families would have to rely on Mass Health and I can't see how the state would agree to that. Of course it wouldn't shock me though the way the government programs are run.
Yesterday I was looking up about SSI. I am thinking of applying because of dd's delays and all the money and time I have to put into therapy for her. Anyways it seems that so many kids get SSI for at most only being mild disabled, while familes with severely disabled child gets denied multiple times. Please explain that to me. The article I found was from the Boston Globe Dec 2010. They interview families that have been getting SSI for children that were speech delayed, but now normal yet still receive SSI every month and likely will until the child is 18. One family has a 18 month old toddler that wasn't talking and they got approved for SSI. No other problems. I think to myself how dd was at 18 months and she wasn't talking as well as wasn't doing anything else that was age appropriate. In fact only now at 26 months after 2 years of therapy is she at an 18 month level. Another family has a 9 year old that was speech delayed as a toddler and only problem right now is saying the r sound. The get a $700 check every month. It pisses me off because I couldn't even pronounce the r or say my name, as well as pronounce l or sh at age 19 and I never drawed disablity and this family with a normal child that is no longer classified to receive help is still getting a disability check. The mother even agrees her dd isn't disability but won't tell SSI that because they need the check because the woman doesn't want to work. Then you hear stories of kids with down syndrome having to fight to be approved. It makes you wonder who makes these decisions. Anyways, I figured it doesn't hurt to apply for dd plus I want to do it before her next EI evalue on the 24th since she has made huge gains in some areas over the past couple of months. In January when I took her Children's development team she was assessed to be between a 6-15 month level in all areas (language being the lowest). She was 22 months at the time. I am thinking with that 17 page report and her chromosome deletion that she should have a decent shot, especially if kids are being approved who are only late talkers.
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