So today is cd 24 (7 dpo). On a normal cycle I would have AF now, instead I have another 4-5 day wait. I should expect AF mid next week and then it looks like ER will be around June 21-22.
Now with my insurance situation this cycle has a lot more pressure than the last two did.
I don't know what I will do if it fails.
I feel time is passing by and everyone around me is pregnant again, even people who gave birth long after me. Even the women who did ivf with me back in 2009 when I got pregnant with the twins. Only one women besides me out of our group of 10 or so isn't pregnant, but that may change in a month. One women is even 3 months pregnant with her third. I couldn't believe it. Even the fertile women on ff aren't that fast. Also all of them got pregnant naturally after ivf (except for one).
Now I am happy for these women since they don't have to experience ivf again, but I wonder why can't we be that lucky. Instead I have done 2 ivf since giving birth and still aren't pregnant.
Who would have thought that we were so IF. And here is the weird thing, most of the time I don't think of myself as IF. In fact when I hear about a couple experiencing IF I feel so badly for them and that I would hate to have that, and then I remember that oh yes, we are probably even more IF than the people I am reading about our. It is funny how that goes. I think it is a coping strategy in order to deal with this disease everyday.
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