Where art are ovulation

Day 15, temp is still low.  Wondering if this cycle is going to turn out anovulatory.  I was really hoping the ivf cycle wouldn't have messed up my cycle, but it looks like it did.  To make matters worse is this makes it near impossible to try this month, however I don't want to sit things out since this is our last chance before ivf again.  We bd on day 10 and 12, so now too late, however dh works during the week and we normally don't bd more than once a month (in fact we didn't do anything all of March and April - though that had to do with doing the ivf's) so I think dh will think something is strange if we try for a third time in one week.

I am also getting upset with all the pregnant women and babies all around.  It is the feeling of being left behind again.  Yesterday I took dd for her toddler group.  There is a woman with a 2.5 yo boy that also sits and waits with us.  Well yesterday the OT (who is pregnant) comes out and talks to her about having a baby.  I think to myself what is this woman talking about.  I have seen her every week for 6 months she was never pregnant.  In fact she was one of the few unpregnant woman I know with a young child so I felt save that there is another mother with a 2 yo that isn't pregnant.  Well when I went back to pick dd up yesterday afternoon she brought her baby.  The first time ever I saw her with a baby.  I ask her when she gave birth and she said March 30 (guess someone has been watching the baby for the past 5 weeks - well I hope because the other option of having the baby in the car alone is not something I want to think about).  I can't believe I never knew she was pregnant (and it isn't like the baby was a preemie).  Maybe it was good though because I didn't have to deal with seeing a pregnant belly and it would have been difficult for me to see her after the failed cycles.  Of course all I can think now is how lucky this woman is.  She basically got a baby without dealing with being hugely pregnant.  Even now at 5 weeks post birth she looks great. 

I think the failed cycles are really affecting me, especially this past one because I did have two embryos.  Having to hear about people who have the same due date as I would have makes me upset.  I wonder how they can be pregnant when they had to have sex and only had one embryo implant, when I went through the pain of ivf and had two embryos already 3 days old put in.  It isn't fair.  If anyone that should be me because I had double the shot than they did.  Instead I am sitting here waiting for AF so I can take a pill to prevent pregnancy so we can do ivf again.  Please explain this to me. 

And then to make matters worse, what do I do, but go buy a pack of size 1 diapers yesterday.  I said I wouldn't, but I had a target coupon and a coupon for pampers swaddlers that I felt an overwhelming need to use.  And since swaddlers don't come in size 4 I had to buy a small size, not like dd needs anymore diapers anyhow.

I just worry that I will never get pregnant again, and then even if I do I worry that we will not get a thb.