So I went in for my beta this morning. Only reason why I went in is because I was planning on starting the pill tomorrow and they won't let me start without a negative beta. Well no surprise I'm not pregnant.
So I ask the nurse if I can start the pill and she said the doctor would like you to wait and do a f/u appt first. I tell her I really don't want to wait, my insurance renews July 1 and I really need to cycle before this. She then put me on hold to ask the doctor and comes back on and says no the doctor DOES NOT want you to take the pill this cycle. So there you have it. I am being forced to sit out for 2 cycles instead of just 1. I really need to cycle in June and now that is not looking like it will not be a possiblity.
I am really upset about this even more so than the bfn. I don't care about the bfn and was just looking forward to moving on and now that is put on hold until my next AF - which who knows how long that will be (I have short cycles so I was at least happy about that, but then I read how cycles are messed up after ivf and most people have much longer than normal cycles and many are anovulary too). I even thought about secretly taking the pill and stopping after a couple of weeks to get a withdraw bleed and then saying I got AF, but I think if I do this they will find out when they check my levels and do the scan.
So right now I am very frustrated that they can control my life and cycle like this. We go for our wtf appt next Friday (not like it matters getting it done quickly since I can't start anything until AF comes).
I am not really looking forward to this appt because I don't expect much of anything to come out of it except her saying you have diminished ovarian reserve and dh has crappy sperm.
Think I am going to buy some co-enzyme q10 tomorrow at the store and also start on losing some of this weight since I will not be one meds for the next few weeks at least.
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