11w2d

I am really getting pissed that so far most of my whole summer has been spent lying on the couch.
DH has to go grocery shopping alone today since I can't risk going again.  At least for the last 3 weeks we were all able to go together, but now it is back to relying on dh totally.

I do have to do the dishes and laundry today though since they haven't been done since Wednesday.  Today I have only had a little bit of spotting - either red or brown so at least no bleeds, but I constantly think I am going to bleed again.  I am cramping which isn't fun.  It is like pre-AF cramps so not extreme, but definately uncomfortable and it worries me since it is a sign that the blood is irritating the uterus.  I ordered another box of crinone yesterday and had the pharmacy deliver it same day.  It arrived shortly after 3 in the afternoon, but I had to wait until 4 to use it since dd's therapists were still here.  I believe that the progesterone is at least helping with the cramps because they were pretty bad before I put in yesterday's dose and then it eased up a ton.  Today I plan to put one in at noon time and then tomorrow start first thing in the morning after getting ready.

I am really hoping the bleeding stays away since I have to do this call tomorrow and so I will be gone for 3.5 hours in the morning.  I don't want to make the SCH worse, but I can't change the appt.  Only way I would cancel is if I start bleeding very very heavy and have to go back to the hospital, then I will have no choice :(  I just pray that this will be the end of complications for this pregnancy.  I am so worried about having to be put on hospital bedrest because my business won't be able to survive and I know dh can not handle the household, taking care of dd, and doing his school work.

We got into a fight yesterday because dh had to clean up before dd's therapists came.  He had to go to the doctors yesterday because he is on ritalin and I guess his bp was threw the roof.  Ya, no surprise there.  DH can't handle everyday normal stress because of his ADHD so when there are extra things on top of that it causes him to go off the deep end.  So then he says I don't care about his health because I wouldn't let him quit yesterday instead of waiting until the 30th.  I told him then he shouldn't have broke my laptop and if he wanted to quit a week early then he would need to come up with the $350 for my laptop another way - this made him even more angry.  I told him he doesn't care about my health by constantly sitting in the living room when he knew I was bedrest and yelling at me raising my bp.  It seems when I need dh the most is when he is the least helpful :(
I can't wait until he can get a new psychiatist, but don't see that happening before the end of the year.

At least her therapist yesterday said she is taking 2 weeks off so this means that for the next 2 weeks we don't have to worry about any therapists coming to the house and having to clean up.  Hopefully this gives me some time to hunt for a housekeeper to keep up with such things so I don't have to rely on dh.