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So I am pretty positive I lost my mucus plug overnight.  I started having really mucusy brown discharge yesterday, some of it even went on the pad after sneezing.  Since it was a small amount and brown and everything looked good with my appt yesterday, plus the fact I had a digital exam on Friday I decided not to be too concerned about it.

Overnight the mucus picked up and I eventually passed a thumb sized glob of brown mucus.  After this I continued to spot a bit on the pad, but it seems to have stopped now for today. 

I read online what this could mean and it really doesn't say.  Basically it is a sign that labour is close, but the time until then can be viable anywhere from hours, to days, to weeks.  I really hope it is weeks.  Though I know if the baby was born now things would be okay, I would at least like to make it to as close to fullterm as possible.

In other news, I feel horrible today thanks to the cold I caught from dd.  I really hate this because after today I have a real busy week.  Tomorrow morning going to the WIC office, then Thursday at the doctors all day, and then Saturday dd's hospital tour then we have to get together with one of my friend's so dh can do one of his school projects on her son (since dh has no friends I had to run through my list to find people), then Sunday I have a housecall and then the week starts again.  All I want to do is lie here and rest and cut off my nose since it is bothering me so much.

Also I don't know what to do about dh anymore.  Everyday his father isn't here to help is a nightmare and it is really getting me concerned especially with how he treats dd.  I even called his mother up to complain saying I can't trust dh with dd anymore and that she will need to watch her for half a week when FIL isn't here.  Of course she didn't want to hear this and she denies that dh could be that bad and says that we both yell.  I may yell but not in my dd's face at the top of my lungs and I don't kick and break things.  She even doesn't believe me that I would trust FIL with dd way more than I would dh.  It pisses me off she can not see how her son is and how much of a problem it is.  Of course she also refuses to help at all (even if we even drove dd to her house a few days a week and drop her off for the day) so I don't know what to do.  I wish I was in the hospital because then she would have no choice but to buckle down and help.  As for dh, I don't know what to do with him anymore.  He needs a stronger dose of meds, but still hasn't even looked for a psychiatrist yet even though his last one left 8 months ago.  I can't handle his ADHD maddness anymore and seriously if things don't improve I may have no choice but to leave with dd and the baby because I can't subject dd to that.