15 weeks

I have been very busy the last few days so couldn't update, so this will be a brief overview of half my week so far.

Monday - had my ob appt at 9.  It went better than the other times.  I immediately told the doctor about how the spotting just ended the day before and how I started on the progesterone again because of the cramping.  He was fine with me being on the progesterone and immediately brought in the u/s machine to have a look because of the ongoing spotting.  It was still hard to see the screen because of the glare, but got to see the head, spine, and heartbeat sort of.  He saw the placenta and said it looked good and attached and no sign of any bleeding.  I wish he would measure the baby, but I guess I just have to wait for the 3 weeks for the anatomy scan for that.  I asked about the bloodwork from the NT scan, he said he doesn't get anything until after the 2nd tri screen and all he had was the NT measurement which we knew.  I told him how I really was worried about the bloodwork since that is what was bad last time and looking back it was the first sign there was something wrong with the placenta.  He then said that if the pap-a was abnormal that he usually gets a call and he never got a call so that helped ease my fears a lot that history will not repeat itself and that this baby's placenta will be good and we won't have growth problems like last time.  I don't know what my bp was since they never tell me but assume it was normal since he never mentioned it.  I am also up 1.5 lb from my prepregnancy weight of 226 which is great.  I don't go back for another 4 weeks, but at least get to have the anatomy scan done in 3 weeks which is more important.

Monday afternoon I had to cancel dd's therapies so we could see a lawyer about this cps case.  The lawyer did  ease my fears by saying since the letter called it an "initial assessment" instead of an "investigation" that it is lower risk and the chance of them taking dd and this baby is very low.
His fees also weren't too bad, however we would have to pay an extra 3 hours for travel time because he lived 1.5 hours away.  Anyways, we decided to forgo hiring him at this stage since we are hoping that the case will be closed since we have kept the place spotless and dd is well taken care of.  If they decide to take the next step and open it up for a full assessment then I think we may hire him since those interviews are way more intense and involve a ton of personal questions.  He expects Friday visit will only be a 10-15 min interview about their concerns and what we have done to improve things.

Tuesday - I took dd back to the library again in the morning for Mother Goose.  Because of appts and the bleeding she hasn't been able to go to the library most of the summer. Unfortunately dd is horrible now when we enter and leave the library because she sees the playground at the school beside it and she wants to go there and I can't let her with being on restriction because of the SCH.  I did ask FIL if he could come to the library when we go next Wednesday, that way he can help with her playing at the playground.

Wednesday - We had to go to court this morning for a payment review with our old landlord.  We sat there for 2 hours until their lawyer called us and then told us that we never even had to go there today that since we have been paying every month all we needed to do was call his office a few days ago and have it continued until December.  I was thanks for telling us this now and you really could have told us this an hour ago after the clerk went through the rollcall of all the cases for today.  So now we have to call just before December 12 to get it postponed again which I hate.  We aren't going to have money for 2 years until dh graduates so don't see the point of calling every 3 months for 2 years until our financial situation changes and by then we will just pay the whole bill in full.  Still pissed that we even have this judgement against us since they broke the law charging us for wear and tear after 7.5 years, however since they have a big shot lawyer and we couldn't afford anyone the odds of winning were basically nil from the get go and then even when I tried to appeal their lawyer threatened us saying we would have to pay his bill if we went through with the trial so we had no choice but to pull the appeal.


I am currently at the stage today where ds growth stopped.  I am not sure how long he did grow for, but he never grew past 15 week in size and between 18 and his death at 21 weeks there was no growth at all, not even one day.  So this point in pregnancy marks a major step for me.  Now just need to get through the next 3 weeks until the anatomy scan and pray this baby is continuously growing and is healthy.  If we get a good scan in 3 weeks only then will I feel so much more better and more like that we will have a baby at the end of this winter.

I haven't spotted now for 4 days.  I am hoping that this means the SCH is gone for good, but not trying to get too excited since I thought that before and went 3 weeks without spotting only to end up with a big bleed.  Anyways, I have stopped wearing pads which feels great.