The roller coaster called ivf

Well today my day 10 u/s and bloodwork.  Most of my ovarian symptoms have disappeared.  The bloating was still there, but seemed less today, and my cm has seemed to be pretty lagging (you would think with a regular cycle that a person gets lots of good ewcm when there is one dominant follicle that I would be dipping (sorry tmi) of ewcm with doing ivf and having way elevated estrogen compared to a normal cycle, but nope.  So I was kind worried about this morning's appt.  Also since the results today will likely tell me ER day and anticipated egg count. 

I had my blood drawn first and since all my previous blood draws have been on my left, I decided to give it a break and have her do the right.  Well it was a fail so I ended up being poked twice and still needing the left poked.

Then for my u/s the tech was impressed right from the start.  I have 5 large follicles on my right and 2 on my left.  I couldn't believe it.  All the last appts she was only seeing 2.  I thought we were game over.  And the good news is the lead follicles didn't grow much so they are only measuring 16-17 so hopefully I can get a few more days of stims in before triggering to get the max amount of mature eggs.  I will find out the full results when the nurse calls this afternoon.

Oh and on other good news, I got my insurance statement yesterday and Quest balanced billed me again.  Good thing I didn't call them on Wednesday because I really only owe them $166 instead of $355.  I was so happy my bill dropped almost $200.  Of course the insurance statement did say I had a $300 something genetic charge that I have received the bill for so I have to prepare for that.  But the good news is so far $1200 of my deducible has been charged so the ivf itself will only be an additional $800. 

Anyways I hope this good news lasts, but we all know a cycle doesn't always work that way.  I think that is what is so hard about ivf.  I have been miserable the last week thinking I would get at most 2 eggs at ER and likely won't make it to ET and now things have completely changed around and if our luck stays maybe we can even do a 5dt.  However it is this emotional rollercoaster that makes ivf so difficult and is the reason a bfn is so much harder to take.  When you think about it, we started trying for this cycle December 16 and we will find out our results 3 months later.  We have invested as much energy into this as someone does with being pregnant for 12 weeks and then finding out the baby died, and we haven't even gotten to the pregnancy stage yet!