Not having a very good day today. I started having lots of mucus with brown blood around 4 this morning. Passed a few brown clots. At 7 there was a streak of red spotting, then brown. I started cramping. Left for my doctor's appt shortly after 7:30. My appt was for 8:45 and it is a 30 minute drive so figured I would have plenty of time for traffic and parking.
What I didn't figure on though was that it was going to be sleeting and people refused and the roads would be so packed that the whole way I drove from 0-10 miles an hour instead of 65. I finally arrived at 9:20 - so almost 2 hours later and more than 30 min late for my appt. Also of course there was no first floor parking or even close 2nd floor parking so I didn't to park on the 3rd floor ramp, almost slipped coming out of my car since the 3rd floor isn't covered and having to walk down the stairs and make the track to the doctor's office. I really wish I could take advantage of one of the millions of handicap spots on the first floor, but doubt I could get a temporary sticker quick enough to be able to use it.
Luckily I didn't have to wait long at the doctor's office, but then I found that my doctor doesn't work on Wednesday, only Monday mornings so I was put in with the resident which I was not happy about since I really need to speak to my doctor about some things. To make matters worse is he is also not in next week because Monday is a holiday and then we run into the same problem for half of February. The one nurse is going to see if I can switch to the Tuesday doctor so will call tomorrow if that is possible. Really don't want to be switching doctors this late in the game, but I can't keep seeing a resident.
I then started the first round of NST due to being 32 weeks now. At first they claimed I am only down for once a week which I got upset about and told them no my doctor said I would be having them twice a week. I specificly remember this conversation with him back in August because I thought it was crazy that that was the best he would offer is twice weekly NST starting at 32 weeks when last pregnancy I had them 3 times a day starting at 29 weeks and didn't even make it to 31w1d.
After much bitching the nurse finally letted me come twice a week if it makes me feel better so I will be going back Friday afternoon. I don't really like the drive or parking costs, but I am not having less monitoring than what my doctor told me he was going to do, especially now since I am having problems. Heck I don't even know if I will make it another week.
I am pretty positive of 2 things though. I will have another bleed, likely by the weekend, and I will get PE and iugr in the next month if I make it that long. I just have a feeling on these things. I also am right now only about 75% positive we will make it out of this pregnancy with a live baby. I hate saying that, but since this bleeding incidents I don't feel very confident and I can't look at any baby stuff right now or even try planning for this baby. I had another nightmare last night that I was severely bleeding and my placenta was fully abrupting. This is the 2nd such nightmare I have had in the past 3 days. I can't even get away from this crap in my sleep!
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