Thursday, July 12, 2012
5w1d scare
I woke up this morning shortly before 6 with a major scare. I had done my 2nd pee for the night at 5:30am and then tried to lie back down, but realized I needed to go #2 so back to the bathroom I went. I had to strain a bit, but didn't think much about it until afterwards when I wiped my front and noticed pinkish spotting. I immediately freaked out.
For the next hour I had on and off abdominal cramps and so had to go back to the bathroom multiple times. (sorry tmi - now my stool is extremely loose). The spotting seems to have died down, but it still has me worried.
I am trying to tell myself that it likely was from having to strain too much the first time and probably bursting some blood vessels in my cervix. I hope this is the case. Other possiblity is a SCH which I hope isn't the case because those can be scary, though not as scary as m/c. I am telling myself it can't be a m/c because my hcg was over 2500 just 3 days ago. Even if it was going down, I can't see it being low enough to cause bleeding already.
I had a similar experience with my last pregnancy at 6 weeks that also happened after a BM and went away just as quickly as it came, though then I ended up with a SCH 2 weeks later and ds's placenta failing a few weeks later. I can't be sure that the SCH caused this, but it does way on my mind.
Anyways this spotting does totally ruin my plans for today. I was suppose go to the WIC office this morning to pick up the farmer's market checks. They only give them out one day now and if you miss it tough luck. However, I can't risk going there and the spotting getting worse just for $20.
Then dd has 2 therapists coming this afternoon at 3 and 5:30 and our place is a mess. I don't know what to do and know dh won't do all the cleaning, but I don't want to take the chance of making things worse. As well as I have a client to call late this morning about a sick cat. I tried to refer them out yesterday, but the owner wanted to wait to see how the cat is doing today. Anyways, even if I didn't have the spotting I couldn't fit them in today so I think I am going to give him 2 options - either go to the hospital or if the cat is better wait at home. Really no point in me going out there, charging him $100 and then sending him to the hospital anyways.
Wednesday, July 11, 2012
5 weeks
Another week down. I must say though, things are moving really slow right now, I hope things speed up.
I was worried overnight that I don't have many symptoms anymore. It seems besides peeing all the time the only symptom I have is getting tired after 8. However, I think I realized why I feel this way. It is because of the PIO. I take the shot between 7-8 and usually 10 min after the shot the extreme tiredness sets in. I can be feeling great before this.
It is really worrisome because my hcg is high enough I should be feeling some symptoms. I can no longer take hpt since it won't tell me anything new at this stage and I am still at min another month away from being able to use my doppler.
Then my back started hurting during the night, but now I know what it is. It isn't my back, but my left hip. I think when FIL gave my shot last night he may have hit the nerve or something because that spot is killing me today.
I am currently mad at dh. We got into another big fight last night and he refused to give me my shot, so had to get his father to give it. I told him it wasn't his father's job to do it, but his. FIL only does it during the days dh is at work, but when he is home here he should do it. DH was off last night because of my citizenship interview. Anyways, I wish he would have went to work because all he did was sit on the bed and play his xbox all evening and sulk about how horrible his life is. I can't stand people that are always grochy, never happy, and are never appreciate of all that they have. Sometimes I think what is the point with being with dh since he isn't going to change. For the past 5.5 years all I've done was try to improve his life, but he is still always a groch and doesn't want to do anything to help himself. I have to keep naggy him to see if he contracted a psychologist or his school. I know most of it has to do with the ADHD, but it is just so frustrating dealing with someone who only just bitches all day and then sits on his ass and play video games when he could be so much more productive.
I was worried overnight that I don't have many symptoms anymore. It seems besides peeing all the time the only symptom I have is getting tired after 8. However, I think I realized why I feel this way. It is because of the PIO. I take the shot between 7-8 and usually 10 min after the shot the extreme tiredness sets in. I can be feeling great before this.
It is really worrisome because my hcg is high enough I should be feeling some symptoms. I can no longer take hpt since it won't tell me anything new at this stage and I am still at min another month away from being able to use my doppler.
Then my back started hurting during the night, but now I know what it is. It isn't my back, but my left hip. I think when FIL gave my shot last night he may have hit the nerve or something because that spot is killing me today.
I am currently mad at dh. We got into another big fight last night and he refused to give me my shot, so had to get his father to give it. I told him it wasn't his father's job to do it, but his. FIL only does it during the days dh is at work, but when he is home here he should do it. DH was off last night because of my citizenship interview. Anyways, I wish he would have went to work because all he did was sit on the bed and play his xbox all evening and sulk about how horrible his life is. I can't stand people that are always grochy, never happy, and are never appreciate of all that they have. Sometimes I think what is the point with being with dh since he isn't going to change. For the past 5.5 years all I've done was try to improve his life, but he is still always a groch and doesn't want to do anything to help himself. I have to keep naggy him to see if he contracted a psychologist or his school. I know most of it has to do with the ADHD, but it is just so frustrating dealing with someone who only just bitches all day and then sits on his ass and play video games when he could be so much more productive.
Tuesday, July 10, 2012
4w6d
I had to get up this morning at 5 for my citizenship interview and test. I went to bed last night at 9 after getting all my stuff ready and then had to get for the first time shortly after 12 to go to the bathroom. Unfortunately, I had a real hard time falling asleep after this. I never looked at the clock because it just stresses me out even more when having insomina, but I think I probably fell back asleep at 3:30 and then woke up again just before 5 to get up.
Luckily this lack of sleep didn't cause much trouble. We arrived around 8:15 and I got called back shortly after 9. By 10 we were out of there and on our way home and to pick dd up.
I passed all tests with flying colors and they gave me my oath date. July 26 at noon. I was not expecting it to be this early at all, and since it is so early, not like I can contest the date. I had a doctor's appt booked that day for a new pcp since my old one left. I had to call up and reschedule that appt to now July 31. I can't wait too long to get a new pcp because I don't know if I need one to referral me to a mfm doctor or if my ob can do that. I definately have to get with the peri between 11-13 weeks for the NT scan (hopefully on the earlier side since by 11 weeks last time ds's placenta was already starting to show problems through the bloodwork. By 15 weeks it was dead, so I can't wait too long in case I need something stronger than just the BA).
I also don't know how getting my citizenship so early will affect buying private insurance. I am probably the only person in MA that will qualify for masshealth, but want to pay out of pocket for private insurance in case we lose this pregnancy and need to do ivf again.
I kept dd home from school today since we didn't arrive home until 12:30 and didn't feel like taking her back out in an hour to go to school. It is starting to look like she may not go to school much this month, if I have my u/s on a Tuesday then I will have to keep her out again, and now on the 31st I need to go to the doctors for 3:30 so I don't know what to do with dd. She goes to school from 2-4:30 and it is just down the road from the doctor office so I may play it by ear and either take her out early, or tell them I may be late since this is a new doctor's office, not sure how long it will be.
I am taking her to the library though tomorrow so she will get some time with other kids her age. We missed the last 3 weeks. First because of ER, then the following week I had to work, and then last Wednesday was the 4th. It will be weird going back there now being pregnant. Wonder if all the big pregnat women will still bother me as much, of course some may have given birth so that is something else I will have to contend with.
Luckily this lack of sleep didn't cause much trouble. We arrived around 8:15 and I got called back shortly after 9. By 10 we were out of there and on our way home and to pick dd up.
I passed all tests with flying colors and they gave me my oath date. July 26 at noon. I was not expecting it to be this early at all, and since it is so early, not like I can contest the date. I had a doctor's appt booked that day for a new pcp since my old one left. I had to call up and reschedule that appt to now July 31. I can't wait too long to get a new pcp because I don't know if I need one to referral me to a mfm doctor or if my ob can do that. I definately have to get with the peri between 11-13 weeks for the NT scan (hopefully on the earlier side since by 11 weeks last time ds's placenta was already starting to show problems through the bloodwork. By 15 weeks it was dead, so I can't wait too long in case I need something stronger than just the BA).
I also don't know how getting my citizenship so early will affect buying private insurance. I am probably the only person in MA that will qualify for masshealth, but want to pay out of pocket for private insurance in case we lose this pregnancy and need to do ivf again.
I kept dd home from school today since we didn't arrive home until 12:30 and didn't feel like taking her back out in an hour to go to school. It is starting to look like she may not go to school much this month, if I have my u/s on a Tuesday then I will have to keep her out again, and now on the 31st I need to go to the doctors for 3:30 so I don't know what to do with dd. She goes to school from 2-4:30 and it is just down the road from the doctor office so I may play it by ear and either take her out early, or tell them I may be late since this is a new doctor's office, not sure how long it will be.
I am taking her to the library though tomorrow so she will get some time with other kids her age. We missed the last 3 weeks. First because of ER, then the following week I had to work, and then last Wednesday was the 4th. It will be weird going back there now being pregnant. Wonder if all the big pregnat women will still bother me as much, of course some may have given birth so that is something else I will have to contend with.
Monday, July 9, 2012
today's beta result
2533
So kind of what I expected. Betabase says it is a doubling time of 39.7 hours.
Of course, not sure how accurate that is since the beta was 4 days apart and doubling time usually slows after 1200.
Anyways, it is still a good number and I go back for a third (and hopefully last) beta in one week, by then my number should be over 10,000.
And just for comparison, my twin pregnancy the beta for the day before today was 1996 so not sure what to think since my starting number was so high this time. There can either be two in there or one really powerful singleton.
So kind of what I expected. Betabase says it is a doubling time of 39.7 hours.
Of course, not sure how accurate that is since the beta was 4 days apart and doubling time usually slows after 1200.
Anyways, it is still a good number and I go back for a third (and hopefully last) beta in one week, by then my number should be over 10,000.
And just for comparison, my twin pregnancy the beta for the day before today was 1996 so not sure what to think since my starting number was so high this time. There can either be two in there or one really powerful singleton.
4w5d
I'm now more than half way done with 4 weeks. Took my last frer this morning just after midnight. The test line came up dark right away. 30 seconds later the control line appeared, but lighter than the test line. So I am hoping this is good news. I went for my 2nd beta this morning so hoping for a good number this afternoon. Hopefully at least 2000 since it was almost 500 four days ago.
Everyone was happy for me at the clinic and I am glad that the new thrombologist wasn't there so the secretory got to draw my blood. She has been doing it for my last two cycles, and then a couple months ago they hired a new girl who isn't that great. Anyways, since I had developed such a good relationship over my previous cycles it was nice to have her do my blood this morning. They still aren't checking my progesterone or estrogen which I am surprised about. Maybe because I am on the meds, but I really would like to know what my values are since I have a feeling my progesterone is sky high because of all my symptoms.
This morning I felt very out of it. Basically how I felt after taking the valium or being under anesthesia after the ER. I never thought the fatigue would hit me this bad this early. It really sucks because tomorrow I have my citizenship interview and test and I am freaking out that I will blank for the test answers since my mind is so foggy.
As I was leaving this morning, I had to sign a release form so they can get the records from my twin's birth. I really hope Beth Israel doesn't take to long to release them since I remember how much of a struggle it was to get ds's autopsy report from them.
As I was walking back to my car, I ran into my RE. She asked how I was feeling, I said fine, just tired. I really feel like I am just going through the motions of everything, but can't really think or respond.
I received an emergency euthanasia call yesterday just after lunch, however I don't answer my phone on Sundays or holidays so I never found out until I checked my phone at 9 last night before going to bed. I tried calling the client back this morning after I got back from the SSA office, but there was no answer. I am guessing she is working today. Anyways, I am just praying she someone trapped the cat and brought it into the ER or called animal control because the cat is feral and I really don't feel up to working today (between the tiredness and preparing for my citizenship test tomorrow and getting dd's overnight bag ready for nana's) especially with handling a feral cat that I don't know how handlable it is. I am not at a state right now where I can risk getting myself scratched or bite, especially from a cat that likely isn't up to date on shots.
Everyone was happy for me at the clinic and I am glad that the new thrombologist wasn't there so the secretory got to draw my blood. She has been doing it for my last two cycles, and then a couple months ago they hired a new girl who isn't that great. Anyways, since I had developed such a good relationship over my previous cycles it was nice to have her do my blood this morning. They still aren't checking my progesterone or estrogen which I am surprised about. Maybe because I am on the meds, but I really would like to know what my values are since I have a feeling my progesterone is sky high because of all my symptoms.
This morning I felt very out of it. Basically how I felt after taking the valium or being under anesthesia after the ER. I never thought the fatigue would hit me this bad this early. It really sucks because tomorrow I have my citizenship interview and test and I am freaking out that I will blank for the test answers since my mind is so foggy.
As I was leaving this morning, I had to sign a release form so they can get the records from my twin's birth. I really hope Beth Israel doesn't take to long to release them since I remember how much of a struggle it was to get ds's autopsy report from them.
As I was walking back to my car, I ran into my RE. She asked how I was feeling, I said fine, just tired. I really feel like I am just going through the motions of everything, but can't really think or respond.
I received an emergency euthanasia call yesterday just after lunch, however I don't answer my phone on Sundays or holidays so I never found out until I checked my phone at 9 last night before going to bed. I tried calling the client back this morning after I got back from the SSA office, but there was no answer. I am guessing she is working today. Anyways, I am just praying she someone trapped the cat and brought it into the ER or called animal control because the cat is feral and I really don't feel up to working today (between the tiredness and preparing for my citizenship test tomorrow and getting dd's overnight bag ready for nana's) especially with handling a feral cat that I don't know how handlable it is. I am not at a state right now where I can risk getting myself scratched or bite, especially from a cat that likely isn't up to date on shots.
Sunday, July 8, 2012
4w4d
Well got a new laptop yesterday so now I am happy again. And the good news is since it was over $500 (came to $510 with the 2 year accidental plan) we get 0% financing for 18 months, so we can take our time to pay it off and if another spill or cracked screen happens it will be fixed for free.
So I am getting really worried my symptoms are so strong this time. I know that most people have the opposite problem, and I would admit I would freak too if I didn't feel pregnant, but it does worry me about the strong symptoms and high hcg value that there is two (or more) in there.
This morning I had to stop from changing dd's diaper and get dh to do it because I got extremely nausous and was about to throw up. I never felt this this early in my other pregnancies. Even with my twin pregnancy I didn't have that bad of symptoms except extreme tiredness. I never vomited though did have a number of occasions where I came close and did have nonstop queasiness from 9-14 weeks. This time the queasiness started a week ago and hasn't let up. Though it is still mild, it is concerning if I am feeling this way at 4 and a half weeks, what will I feel like in 2-4 weeks from now.
I am grateful that I got no calls this week and hoping it is the same for this coming week since my schedule is jam packed busy. Tomorrow I have to go down to SSA so who knows how long I will be there. Then Tuesday morning is my citizenship interview and test. So not looking forward to this. We have to leave at like 5:30am in order to arrive in Boston on time and right now my brain is working at 25% performance at best thanks to the severe pregnancy brain.
So I am getting really worried my symptoms are so strong this time. I know that most people have the opposite problem, and I would admit I would freak too if I didn't feel pregnant, but it does worry me about the strong symptoms and high hcg value that there is two (or more) in there.
This morning I had to stop from changing dd's diaper and get dh to do it because I got extremely nausous and was about to throw up. I never felt this this early in my other pregnancies. Even with my twin pregnancy I didn't have that bad of symptoms except extreme tiredness. I never vomited though did have a number of occasions where I came close and did have nonstop queasiness from 9-14 weeks. This time the queasiness started a week ago and hasn't let up. Though it is still mild, it is concerning if I am feeling this way at 4 and a half weeks, what will I feel like in 2-4 weeks from now.
I am grateful that I got no calls this week and hoping it is the same for this coming week since my schedule is jam packed busy. Tomorrow I have to go down to SSA so who knows how long I will be there. Then Tuesday morning is my citizenship interview and test. So not looking forward to this. We have to leave at like 5:30am in order to arrive in Boston on time and right now my brain is working at 25% performance at best thanks to the severe pregnancy brain.
Saturday, July 7, 2012
4w3d
Have to write this on my phone since in the past 2 days both my laptops broke. Wednesday night my old (and right now main laptop because the screen broke on the other one) stopped charging. I am praying it is just the ac adapter since dd spilled my drink on it that morning. My MIL has a similar laptop so I am going to test it when we drop dd off there on Monday. So the last 2 days I have been using my newer (but more broken) laptop. I brought it brand new last July 1. After 7 weeks the dc jack broke and Toshiba wouldn't fix it saying the case was cracked and I needed to pay for that first. So took it to a computer repair shop and paid for the jack repair totally $145. This was a $300 laptop. Then in December I accidentally stepped on it when doing the Christmas decorations. After this time I tried to use it as little as possible to keep the screen from getting worse. This worked and there was only a small spot in the upper left corner that was gone. Anyways dh wakes me at 11:30 last night bitching saying he spilled his milk on the laptop and it is ruined and he was leaving. I told him or no your not and you will pay for a replacement. We had a big fight last night because if this since the only thing dh has of any worth is his Xbox and games. And since video game prices usually drop instead of rise it isn't worth much even though he owns like 50 games.
Because of this I then ended up having a very hard time falling back to sleep. It took me almost 4 hours to get back to sleep so in total I really only had around 6 hours of sleep last night broken up into two parts.
Anyways today is a better day and I gave dh the option to work an extra week instead of selling his Xbox. At first he did not agree with this saying I should just use the bonus money he got last month. Sorry but that money has already been used to pay for bills we were behind on. Anyways he eventually agreed to this though it may not change his end date at all thanks to vacation time. However as long as he brings in $350 in September either from using vacation time or from selling stuff I don't care. So we are off to best buy this morning to buy me a new laptop. I told him that I will pay for an accidental plan this time because I dont want this to ever happen again. So the laptop will cost around $500, but dh will only need to pay $350 of it. The good news is BB has a 6 month 0 financing option so we will likely do that and I told dh it will be under his name so he can't just walk away from it.
In other news I think dd's SSI got approved. I am kind of shocked about this because I just signed the release form like 3 weeks ago and really wasn't expecting it to be approved at all. The case worker called yesterday asking for Junes wages and statements saying her case came back approved so I don't know what to think, but I have to go down there now Monday morning to submit the stuff. I really hope this is true because we can really use the money especially with dh going back to school in September and quitting his job.
I took another frer at just before 1 when I tried to go back to bed and am happy to report that the test line is now darker than the control line. Of course I am not surprised by that since my hcg is probably around 1000 now. I will test one last time on Monday morning before going for my 2nd beta.
Because of this I then ended up having a very hard time falling back to sleep. It took me almost 4 hours to get back to sleep so in total I really only had around 6 hours of sleep last night broken up into two parts.
Anyways today is a better day and I gave dh the option to work an extra week instead of selling his Xbox. At first he did not agree with this saying I should just use the bonus money he got last month. Sorry but that money has already been used to pay for bills we were behind on. Anyways he eventually agreed to this though it may not change his end date at all thanks to vacation time. However as long as he brings in $350 in September either from using vacation time or from selling stuff I don't care. So we are off to best buy this morning to buy me a new laptop. I told him that I will pay for an accidental plan this time because I dont want this to ever happen again. So the laptop will cost around $500, but dh will only need to pay $350 of it. The good news is BB has a 6 month 0 financing option so we will likely do that and I told dh it will be under his name so he can't just walk away from it.
In other news I think dd's SSI got approved. I am kind of shocked about this because I just signed the release form like 3 weeks ago and really wasn't expecting it to be approved at all. The case worker called yesterday asking for Junes wages and statements saying her case came back approved so I don't know what to think, but I have to go down there now Monday morning to submit the stuff. I really hope this is true because we can really use the money especially with dh going back to school in September and quitting his job.
I took another frer at just before 1 when I tried to go back to bed and am happy to report that the test line is now darker than the control line. Of course I am not surprised by that since my hcg is probably around 1000 now. I will test one last time on Monday morning before going for my 2nd beta.
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